God's Love & Gary-Lee McKinney

Hi everyone:

Hope you're all well :-).... I wanna tell you all a secret; JESUS IS RISEN.
Okay well its not a secret, and it deffiantly the most amazing thing ever happened in history.

God has been really speaking to me this week (ever since Sunday morning at church: 23rd.) about Children, the lost children...who seriously need rescuing by their Daddy.
I have had so much confirmation that I am going to be going to the nations and helping children; and its great to know that in my future I am going to help change lives :-D
I LOVE Children, and they are defiantly a God send and it is so beautiful to see Children worshipping God knowing how much they are loved by the King of Kings!
AHHH I am so excited about the future and am so excited about this new chapter of my life :-D Praise Jesus!!!!!!!

I commited sacrilege by reading some of 'Death by love' by Mark Driscoll without finishing my book 'The Rescuse'- by Nicholas Sparks...But the first page was just amazing and I am really loving it, and it is truely an amazing book! and recommend it to anyone!!

http://relit.org/deathbylove/
Truely amazing :-)

Second part of this blog: is about Gary-Lee McKinney :-)

• He is amazing :-). Hes gorgeous :-)
• The first time I met him; I thought he was attractive and kinda, at the beach I thought he was thoughtful, loving, caring to everything, godly...
• He was interested in who I was as a person & as a Christian, and was thoughtful as I was cold & he offereds his hoodie; even though we had known each other a few hours...and I hadn't implied to anyone I was cold.
• After the 13th July 2009; he could not get out of my head...I told a few people that I liked him, I quite sadly showed a picture of him to my friends at prom (17th July 2009.) I had told Cat Evans when I went to CCK I think...the Sunday before Newday (26th July 2009.)
• I really wanted to see him at Newday, and the first opportunity I had when Rosie wanted to find her church; and I got to see him...for like a few minutes though but it confirmed to me once again that I liked him.
• After the meeting I hung out with Jon, Rosie, Gary-Lee, & Lauren in Global cafe...and we chatted, & chatted. They came back to our campsite and we still jsut talked and I felt so comfortable just talking to him and 'being myself.' I went to bed deffiantly him on my mind as well as also feeling like I had been forgiven by God for the sins I have commited :-).
• The next morning in the dating seminar the two things I thought about were the actions of my Ex and Gary-Lee I had even seen him; but he hadn't seen me...and it really annoyed me!! In the evening meeting I had gone and responded to needing to forgive someone and as I'm not very good at talking about things I knew I needed to tell someone...and I saw Gary-Lee :-) and I suprisingly didn't feel ashamed that I was crying and showing I needed to forgive someone...we didn't talk about seeing each other but that didn't matter. And when we saw each other later it was really niice, and we spent a lil time alone :-) This is where I met Chloe and her friends...who are in Gary-Lee's youth group; and they were very cheeky.
  
• WELL I decided to tell Chris Sanderson told Jon; well implied it and Jon put two & two together, telling Rosie later! We spent the afternoon at the Horsham church and kinda with him and I really enjoyed it; he also gave me his jacket and got told off by Jon...because Jon later said him; "oh Suzie's nice..." Which made him start to think :-) Rosie though had told me that Gary knew...which made me annoyed as I wouldn't have expected him to like me back...as until now no-one really has.
  
• This was when the holy spirit made me drunk in the evening meeting; I was so filled with the Holy Spirit I couldn't even speak and was so not with it!! I went the time with the Horsham lot in the Global cafe again which was niice; and spent time alone with Gary...even though I wasn't with it! But I liked it; and I still liked him even more :-). THIS WAS A GOOD DAY.
  
• I didn't not see him Wednesday :-( And really hated this; as he was truely and utterly plugged in my head!
• Thursday...after lunch I went to the bookshop with Rosie & Chris...and started talking to Tim Windor-Brown about Mars Hill as he had spent time there and loved it :-) Then my sister arrived...and then Gary arrived with Jon which I was suprised about :-) but was verry happy about...therefore spent the afternoon with Gary, Jon, Rosie, my sister & Lauren for a bit :-). It was absolutly lovely...and my feelings for him were so strong for him by now...but i had a lot of disappointed thinking; well the next time I'll see him will be mobilise next year! Oh how I was wrong :-D thankfully. Just as the evening meeting was starting Rosie told me that Gary-Lee had said to Jon when he said he was going to Rosie's church to sit with that evening; that he said "when you come back bring Suzie & Rosie, in that order..." :-) so we spent the last evening together...they came to our campsite, and Gary and I walked together behind Rosie & Jon....We had Hot chocolate and they thought it was better than their campsites hot chocolate :-) He asked for my number and I gave it to him...and we said goodbye for the final night at Newday :-).
  
• On the Friday He text me, on the Saturday he text me and facebook chatted, He invited me to go to West Wittering with his youth group :-D obviously I said yes!! So on the 13th August a month of liking him we saw each other....I spent a lot of time with him that day; but sadly we didn't stay as long as we both wanted to because people we tired :-(. It didn't matter because we were seeing each other the next Tuesday anyway (the 18th)
• He kept on texting each other while he was on holiday in Irelandd :-)
  
• And on the 18th August at West Beach on the side where you go crab fishing we spend about 4/5 hours together talking :-) we just talked and it was amazing; there got to a point in the conversation that we both knew each other liked each other :-)...at Sunset at 7:00pm...Gary-Lee McKinney asked me out :-) ...My Sister, My Mum,(who I texted), Rosie, Jon, Serena, Lydia, Nigel, & Cassey were the first to know as we were with them...And it was one of the best days of my life!! One to never forget :-

My identity is in Jesus Christ, he is my Lord and saviour; and I absolutly captivated at newday by his everlasting and steadfast love.

I have learnt so much about my identity this week; and who I am and who I am not! Jesus Christ Made me to be his daughter and I am fearfully & wonderfully made by him. So therefore I am beautiful because he made me in HIS image.

This newday he has revealed some of his plans for me...I'm going to Sydney, Africa & America at one point...but lets seeing wat he has in hold for my future husband...I never told you about 4 weeks I completely got over the guy I liked...I've started to get over him ever since he went out with his girlfriend but this is it- to the point I don't know why I liked himl; he seriously isn't the right guy for me, and we have pratically nothing in common!! BUT I like someone new; and we both seem to be going the same path....traveling and children (as in working with them.) and in livy Gibbs seminar I felt I was going to be a mother at some point!! Which is really exciting news!

See a lot happened at this newday!!...

My friend Jenny Burdett had two vision for me; which have changed me and helped, it involved my backbone, fear of man & God, Vine's and being sent to both here and abroad, now and then. Sam Mason has a prophecy for me about college next year, and Rachael campbell as a prophecy about me going to America!! AHHHH how exciting!! I was liturally drenched in his holy spirit to the point I was acting drunk and I couldn't speak!! AND IT WAS AMAZING, I was so 'chilled out' and at peace :) Which is such a wonderful place to be in.

I forgave a lot of people who have hurt me in my life, and from that evening I told a massive step forward. Rosie Jenkins prayed for me that Our enemy won't attact me as he has a tendancy to do so when I've just been filled with the Holy Spirit...and I told a leap of faith and told Jenny everything that was going on in my life, and bad stuff I've done; and she has also prayed for me :) ; where I made a decision to not listen to lies of our enemy because The giver of life is far greater!!

like Steph Liston said one of the evenings...Unfold yourself before God; which I actually love that phrase and think we should all 'unfold ourselves before God' and tell him everything that is going on! Because he loves to listen to us.

I also meet a guy; and he is wonderful, lovely, amazing, verry attractive, Godly, and hes been called by God to go traveling and to work with children!! Seriously I really like him :). I've only known him since the 13th July! But I do really miss him now, I liturally missed him on the last day I practically walked pasted him and didn't see him (though he was putting down the big top.) but yeah Corrr!! hahaha

There is so much more I have learnt this newday, stuff that I could not be put into words. But I do not think I am the person I was before newday....In a great way!!

many blessings
Signing out Suzie xxx

Newday 2009

I HAVE BEEN TRANSFORMED; I HAVE BEEN CHANGED. I AM ALIVE IN JESUS CHRIST!!

Seriously this has been the best newday ever! I can not wait for this next year and I can not wait for Newday!!!

Mobilise!!!

JESUS LOVES ME!

I've felt like I've deepend my love with Jesus tonight!!

I AM LOVED BY JESUS CHRIS. HE FINDS ME SO BEAUTIFUL AND I SHOULD CARE WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS
AND EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW HIM. BECAUSE HE IS SO AWESOME AND AMAZING!!

He whispers in my ears. You are so beautiful when u worship me; I love you Suzanna Holly Marlow just the way you are!! Never try and be anyone else but you because that is the way I have created you. I delight in who you are and who you are meant to be. "your art matters Suzie"

Do not worry about yesterday; Do no worry about tomorrow. Look forward to the future and learn from the past. No regrets I have forgiven and forgotten all you sins, so should you.

I send you my fragrance. We are his light in this darkened world. So 'Let your light shine. And bright!!'

I'm going on holiday next week to go to mobilise. I get to 1. spend a week with Charlotte Nelson my sister who I have missed. 2. I get to spend it with Jesus who I just utterly love so much!!

His yoke is easy and burden light!! :)

Signing off
Spirit filled Suzanna Holly Marlow xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

What is Love?

He tells us our yoke is easy, and our burdens are light...
He forgives us for turning away from him, for lieing, for cheating, for wanting bad things...

He delights in us!! Oh how he loves us!! how he loves us ALL!! We can have so much joy in him who understands love more than we can imagine.

love is not just a feeling; or an action. Its not from world. It is something more. Something more attractive than lust, or hate or crying, or hurt, or even happiness. Jesus is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfullness, gentleness & self-control.

He put down his life for us? WHY? Why would anyone do that for people who talk bad things of him; who hates him; who want to disprove him? WHY? You wouldn't do it.... I know that for a fact.

The King of Kings wants to know each of you so intensly and you just walk down the street going along your life not giving one care.

“ At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day; others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes...all you need is one. ”
— Peyton Sawyer

Six billion souls and Jesus knows each and everyone of them personally. He knows you. Imagine someone seeing everything you do...everything you think. What did you look up on the computer today??? What did you think about when you were cheating on your sprouse? Well Lucky for you the all forgiving saviour of the world can see everything u do and think!

I wake up every day rememebing I don't deserve this... I don't deserve being adopted by a King; not just a King...but the KING of kings. I am a princess to him...I AM BEAUTIFUL no matter what anyone else says. The rest of our lifes are being shaped right now...you might not know but what you said yesterday probably effected someone in someway; or how you acted effected how someone might have felts about themselves.


When I find love in a man; I know its because I've found utter love through the creator. When I am so comfortable in who I am in Jesus Christ; his daughter.

It is my time to shine...

He cries out to each of us; and tells us who he loves us. Hes the one that makes our burdens light and our yokes easy. OH HOW HE LOVES!!!

You ask me what love is? Love when found should be unconditional, everlasting, forever growing. And when found like a precious gem should never be let go of. Love when not abused is between two people and Jesus and so beautiful and captivating; where they shine boldly to the world. True love is not jealous or envious. It is not rude or self-seaking like God is not easily angered, he keeps no record of wrongs (when u are forgiven he forgets.) He does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth....Love never fails.

When I feel alone, or sad, or feeling like love will never come my way. I look on my i-pod and go to the album named 'The notebook' (written by my favourite author of all time :) - read Dear John it blew my socks of, because there was so much love in it.) I find the song named 'Our Love can do miracles.'
I am reminded that love is a miracle every day; and that love is out their for each and everyone of us. That no matter what happens Jesus Christ drenches me with love. One day 'my prince will come.' and forever can begin with him....

I am trying to prove God's exsistance; but to say this blog is to show that Love is always there. You just have to find it ;-). But also enjoy being single...and when u find that 'prince charming' both ur "awesomeness" will shine through eachother. :-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2fVH2_mixA&feature=related
This scene reminds me of the hope that there is someone for all us. We are all different but join together with someone else like a two set puzzle piece :-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JoC1ec-lYps
How he loves us Kim Walker :) reminds me that I am loved by a creator; much bigger than a boys love don't you think :-)

Leaving school

Yes my final exam was today! And I think I failed it; but hey!

As people have left they seemed to have fallen into a few categories...

1. Now I've gotten a job and left school; I 'm SOOO grown up! So I'm going to become stuck up.
2. I've left school but will not get a job because my parents will pay for me and I'll walk around like I'm 25
3. I never bothered with school; so I don't care.
4. OH HELP I ACTUALLY MIGHT HAVE TO DECIDE FOR MYSELF AND HAVE RESPONSIBILITES
5. And last but not least the "Finally I've left school, bring on college" basically the normal and sensible people.

Category 1 - annoys me because even though you've left with them they think their better than you, and because they've gotten a job, and work with older people thats means their more mature, and more responsible cos they have 'more' responsibilities; when actually you've had responsibilities a lot longer than them

Category 2 - walk around in the short skirts and tops, and walk around like they own all the money in the world, and are late for a very important.....manicure! Its pathetic and lame; YOUR SIXTEEN FOR GOODNESS STOP TRYING AND FAILING TO ACT OLDER!

Category 3 - The category I don't care about, because at least their not trying to justify themselves to anyone because they don't really care themselve! If they want to ruin their lives then so be it...

Category 4 - are the laughable group, because they are really sweet because they don't actually want to grow up, and again they aren't trying to prove anything unlike category 1 & 2. What this category needs to remember is life goes quickly and responsibilities won't always be rescued by the parents or teachers.

Category 5 - The group I very much like; because they act their age. Leaving school doesn't go to their heads. Starting work doesn't go to their head. And their feet are still safely on the ground. Leaving school personally I don't think is a big deal, because you've got 2 more years of education before you go to university, or take a gap year, or realise you have to act like a adult. People who think because they've left school means they are grown up. Will soon get a shock when they arrive at college seeing the people who are actually grown up; compared to them. Leaving school shouldn't go to your head, its a matter of life every year bilions of people leave school, just like billions of people do a lot og things.

So thats my rant for the day!


Signing out
Suzie x