Suzanna Holly Marlow is in love...with the most amazing man she has ever met.
His name you might wonderful? Gary-Lee McKinney; and man with great passion for Jesus.
He is the most incredible man I have ever met; and I am so blessed to be his Girlfriend.
Jesus has blessed me with such a great man; and I actually can not keep it to myself!
HES JUST SO INCREDIBLLY AMAZINGLY BREATHTAKINGLY WONDERFUL! Suzieanna Loves him a lot :-) I thank Jesus everyday :-)
There is no one else I will ever love :) My heart belongs to him; He has taken my heart, though I gladly gave it to him.
I just wanted you to know how amazing Gary-Lee McKinney
Sighning out Suzanna
Friday, 13 November 2009
Wednesday, 11 November 2009
11.11.09
Remember me when I walk through the mud and see all grey,
Remeber me when I see him lying there next to me,
Remember me when the bullet hits a target,
Remember me when I leave my family to go to war,
Remember me when my training is finished and afganistan I must go,
Remember me if I don't come back...
Remember my children when they don't understand,
Remember my wife when she's about to break,
Remember my parents when they have to bury their child,
Remeber my brother when He goes to war,
Remember my sister when she hears the news I've gone,
Remember, Remember the 11th of Novemeber, When war was meant to be the past; when they said never a world war again, where there would be peace...
Remember, remember the 11th of November; the poppy's remember the lost, I see no reason for your heart to be reasoned, that war should never be forgot...
Wear a poppy and remember the people fighting...Now
Remeber me when I see him lying there next to me,
Remember me when the bullet hits a target,
Remember me when I leave my family to go to war,
Remember me when my training is finished and afganistan I must go,
Remember me if I don't come back...
Remember my children when they don't understand,
Remember my wife when she's about to break,
Remember my parents when they have to bury their child,
Remeber my brother when He goes to war,
Remember my sister when she hears the news I've gone,
Remember, Remember the 11th of Novemeber, When war was meant to be the past; when they said never a world war again, where there would be peace...
Remember, remember the 11th of November; the poppy's remember the lost, I see no reason for your heart to be reasoned, that war should never be forgot...
Wear a poppy and remember the people fighting...Now
Friday, 6 November 2009
Thinking...
well this is a first time in a while, I haven't really known what to write, but I'd thought I'd tell you why I started this blog and where it's ended up!
The first ever post I put was about past 'relationship' and the person I liked at the tme...the paragraphs about the past relationship were fine; but the last paragraph was pathetic; I was immature and just wanted him to like me back; I told God that he was the right person for me...When obviously he wasn't because the man I am with now is so gracious, so kind, so amazing, so gorgeous...And fit my character perfectly. And I am so in love with me more than I ever realised I could which excites me to know an een deeper love to for him; and to hear Jesus deepened my heart for Him.
And the second post was about him to; My first two post were so I could express outwardly how I felt about a guy...or how they had hurt me! i couldn't keep it in; and as I'm not the best person in the world to tell people how I feel writing it down seemed the easiest thing :P
The next months blogs went from yay God, to I hate men, to I hate my imagine, to I am invisible... I know I was listening to God properly and was listening to my emotions...I have always struggled with feeling invisible in crows; and not appreciated. It has been an uphill struggled; it hasn't helped my self confidence though I know my confidence should always be in Jesus :-)
My posts the next months started to change; they weren't always about how I felt and all about ME! They were about love, and Jesus...which of course is a much better topic :-) I still have had rantful posts about leavig school etc; but I wanted to give my post a bit more meaning and I wanted them to glorify jesus :-) bit of a dramatic change huh!
Though I have done a post about a guy; But I think I'm allowed to because hes my Man GaryLee... I had to express when I liked him and wat happenedd and all my feelings from beginning to end :-) I can't hide it on how much I am falling IN LOVE even more each day; and the only reason I love him so much is Because Jesus loves us! :-)
And finally the last post was in september and was about memories I thought it was a nice blog and enjoyed writing it; it had meaning which is want I want from post now :-)
I'm gonna try and write more freguently though I doubt many people read this(except Charlotte)
Signing out
Suzie
The first ever post I put was about past 'relationship' and the person I liked at the tme...the paragraphs about the past relationship were fine; but the last paragraph was pathetic; I was immature and just wanted him to like me back; I told God that he was the right person for me...When obviously he wasn't because the man I am with now is so gracious, so kind, so amazing, so gorgeous...And fit my character perfectly. And I am so in love with me more than I ever realised I could which excites me to know an een deeper love to for him; and to hear Jesus deepened my heart for Him.
And the second post was about him to; My first two post were so I could express outwardly how I felt about a guy...or how they had hurt me! i couldn't keep it in; and as I'm not the best person in the world to tell people how I feel writing it down seemed the easiest thing :P
The next months blogs went from yay God, to I hate men, to I hate my imagine, to I am invisible... I know I was listening to God properly and was listening to my emotions...I have always struggled with feeling invisible in crows; and not appreciated. It has been an uphill struggled; it hasn't helped my self confidence though I know my confidence should always be in Jesus :-)
My posts the next months started to change; they weren't always about how I felt and all about ME! They were about love, and Jesus...which of course is a much better topic :-) I still have had rantful posts about leavig school etc; but I wanted to give my post a bit more meaning and I wanted them to glorify jesus :-) bit of a dramatic change huh!
Though I have done a post about a guy; But I think I'm allowed to because hes my Man GaryLee... I had to express when I liked him and wat happenedd and all my feelings from beginning to end :-) I can't hide it on how much I am falling IN LOVE even more each day; and the only reason I love him so much is Because Jesus loves us! :-)
And finally the last post was in september and was about memories I thought it was a nice blog and enjoyed writing it; it had meaning which is want I want from post now :-)
I'm gonna try and write more freguently though I doubt many people read this(except Charlotte)
Signing out
Suzie
Sunday, 20 September 2009
Memory in pictures
Oh my how we all change....
Have you ever looked at the first picture of your 'profile picture' on facebook etc and then looked at your recent? And you can see how much you have changed so so much...You look in the eyes that maybe were once innocent or had less pain or les truth than you do in the most recent picture... The first picture you knew less, loved less, hurt less...What have you done to get to where you were to where you are now?
What have you leanrt through each year that passes...each day! You grow in knowledge daily..you knew thing you would never have dreamed of knowing. You've met people you would never dream of meeting. You loved more than you've ever loved before...
Their are so many new chapters in you're life you will go through...and they are so excited. It's nice to just take a step back sometimes and see how you're life has truely been mapped out and planned...how you would never be where you are if you hadn't gone through that or been there. :-) There is deffiantly an Author and Artist involved in all this :-) The great planner...
I am so so excited about the future! I wish at this moment in time that college would hurry...I am not enjoying it and am actually half dreading going in tomorrow =| But I am still excited about the plans Jesus has for me :-) Though I've just remembered Sam Marson at newday telling me that Jesus said to not be scared about Lewes...even though Silly Suzie is! Thankyou Jesus for reminding me :-)
I am so thankful that I am God's daughter; and am loved by him so so much :-D He refreshes my broken soul everyday; and I bow at his feet :-) I am in so much peace because the Prince of Peace forever holds me and looks after me! :-) Thankyou Thankyou Jesus! He is my first love..and I will go through the narrow path because that is the path of life. I will do this all because of the love and passion He has for me!
Thankyou to all the people who have entered my life and blessed me with all your loveliness :-)!!
Signing out Suzieanna Daughter of the King of Kings! :-D! x
Have you ever looked at the first picture of your 'profile picture' on facebook etc and then looked at your recent? And you can see how much you have changed so so much...You look in the eyes that maybe were once innocent or had less pain or les truth than you do in the most recent picture... The first picture you knew less, loved less, hurt less...What have you done to get to where you were to where you are now?
What have you leanrt through each year that passes...each day! You grow in knowledge daily..you knew thing you would never have dreamed of knowing. You've met people you would never dream of meeting. You loved more than you've ever loved before...
Their are so many new chapters in you're life you will go through...and they are so excited. It's nice to just take a step back sometimes and see how you're life has truely been mapped out and planned...how you would never be where you are if you hadn't gone through that or been there. :-) There is deffiantly an Author and Artist involved in all this :-) The great planner...
I am so so excited about the future! I wish at this moment in time that college would hurry...I am not enjoying it and am actually half dreading going in tomorrow =| But I am still excited about the plans Jesus has for me :-) Though I've just remembered Sam Marson at newday telling me that Jesus said to not be scared about Lewes...even though Silly Suzie is! Thankyou Jesus for reminding me :-)
I am so thankful that I am God's daughter; and am loved by him so so much :-D He refreshes my broken soul everyday; and I bow at his feet :-) I am in so much peace because the Prince of Peace forever holds me and looks after me! :-) Thankyou Thankyou Jesus! He is my first love..and I will go through the narrow path because that is the path of life. I will do this all because of the love and passion He has for me!
Thankyou to all the people who have entered my life and blessed me with all your loveliness :-)!!
Signing out Suzieanna Daughter of the King of Kings! :-D! x
Wednesday, 26 August 2009
God's Love & Gary-Lee McKinney
Hi everyone:
Hope you're all well :-).... I wanna tell you all a secret; JESUS IS RISEN.
Okay well its not a secret, and it deffiantly the most amazing thing ever happened in history.
God has been really speaking to me this week (ever since Sunday morning at church: 23rd.) about Children, the lost children...who seriously need rescuing by their Daddy.
I have had so much confirmation that I am going to be going to the nations and helping children; and its great to know that in my future I am going to help change lives :-D
I LOVE Children, and they are defiantly a God send and it is so beautiful to see Children worshipping God knowing how much they are loved by the King of Kings!
AHHH I am so excited about the future and am so excited about this new chapter of my life :-D Praise Jesus!!!!!!!
Truely amazing :-)
Second part of this blog: is about Gary-Lee McKinney :-)
Hope you're all well :-).... I wanna tell you all a secret; JESUS IS RISEN.
Okay well its not a secret, and it deffiantly the most amazing thing ever happened in history.
God has been really speaking to me this week (ever since Sunday morning at church: 23rd.) about Children, the lost children...who seriously need rescuing by their Daddy.
I have had so much confirmation that I am going to be going to the nations and helping children; and its great to know that in my future I am going to help change lives :-D
I LOVE Children, and they are defiantly a God send and it is so beautiful to see Children worshipping God knowing how much they are loved by the King of Kings!
AHHH I am so excited about the future and am so excited about this new chapter of my life :-D Praise Jesus!!!!!!!
I commited sacrilege by reading some of 'Death by love' by Mark Driscoll without finishing my book 'The Rescuse'- by Nicholas Sparks...But the first page was just amazing and I am really loving it, and it is truely an amazing book! and recommend it to anyone!!
http://relit.org/deathbylove/
Truely amazing :-)
Second part of this blog: is about Gary-Lee McKinney :-)
- He is amazing :-). Hes gorgeous :-)
- The first time I met him; I thought he was attractive and kinda, at the beach I thought he was thoughtful, loving, caring to everything, godly...
- He was interested in who I was as a person & as a Christian, and was thoughtful as I was cold & he offereds his hoodie; even though we had known each other a few hours...and I hadn't implied to anyone I was cold.
- After the 13th July 2009; he could not get out of my head...I told a few people that I liked him, I quite sadly showed a picture of him to my friends at prom (17th July 2009.) I had told Cat Evans when I went to CCK I think...the Sunday before Newday (26th July 2009.)
- I really wanted to see him at Newday, and the first opportunity I had when Rosie wanted to find her church; and I got to see him...for like a few minutes though but it confirmed to me once again that I liked him.
- After the meeting I hung out with Jon, Rosie, Gary-Lee, & Lauren in Global cafe...and we chatted, & chatted. They came back to our campsite and we still jsut talked and I felt so comfortable just talking to him and 'being myself.' I went to bed deffiantly him on my mind as well as also feeling like I had been forgiven by God for the sins I have commited :-).
- The next morning in the dating seminar the two things I thought about were the actions of my Ex and Gary-Lee I had even seen him; but he hadn't seen me...and it really annoyed me!! In the evening meeting I had gone and responded to needing to forgive someone and as I'm not very good at talking about things I knew I needed to tell someone...and I saw Gary-Lee :-) and I suprisingly didn't feel ashamed that I was crying and showing I needed to forgive someone...we didn't talk about seeing each other but that didn't matter. And when we saw each other later it was really niice, and we spent a lil time alone :-) This is where I met Chloe and her friends...who are in Gary-Lee's youth group; and they were very cheeky.
- WELL I decided to tell Chris Sanderson told Jon; well implied it and Jon put two & two together, telling Rosie later! We spent the afternoon at the Horsham church and kinda with him and I really enjoyed it; he also gave me his jacket and got told off by Jon...because Jon later said him; "oh Suzie's nice..." Which made him start to think :-) Rosie though had told me that Gary knew...which made me annoyed as I wouldn't have expected him to like me back...as until now no-one really has.
- This was when the holy spirit made me drunk in the evening meeting; I was so filled with the Holy Spirit I couldn't even speak and was so not with it!! I went the time with the Horsham lot in the Global cafe again which was niice; and spent time alone with Gary...even though I wasn't with it! But I liked it; and I still liked him even more :-). THIS WAS A GOOD DAY.
- I didn't not see him Wednesday :-( And really hated this; as he was truely and utterly plugged in my head!
- Thursday...after lunch I went to the bookshop with Rosie & Chris...and started talking to Tim Windor-Brown about Mars Hill as he had spent time there and loved it :-) Then my sister arrived...and then Gary arrived with Jon which I was suprised about :-) but was verry happy about...therefore spent the afternoon with Gary, Jon, Rosie, my sister & Lauren for a bit :-). It was absolutly lovely...and my feelings for him were so strong for him by now...but i had a lot of disappointed thinking; well the next time I'll see him will be mobilise next year! Oh how I was wrong :-D thankfully. Just as the evening meeting was starting Rosie told me that Gary-Lee had said to Jon when he said he was going to Rosie's church to sit with that evening; that he said "when you come back bring Suzie & Rosie, in that order..." :-) so we spent the last evening together...they came to our campsite, and Gary and I walked together behind Rosie & Jon....We had Hot chocolate and they thought it was better than their campsites hot chocolate :-) He asked for my number and I gave it to him...and we said goodbye for the final night at Newday :-).
- On the Friday He text me, on the Saturday he text me and facebook chatted, He invited me to go to West Wittering with his youth group :-D obviously I said yes!! So on the 13th August a month of liking him we saw each other....I spent a lot of time with him that day; but sadly we didn't stay as long as we both wanted to because people we tired :-(. It didn't matter because we were seeing each other the next Tuesday anyway (the 18th)
- He kept on texting each other while he was on holiday in Irelandd :-)
- And on the 18th August at West Beach on the side where you go crab fishing we spend about 4/5 hours together talking :-) we just talked and it was amazing; there got to a point in the conversation that we both knew each other liked each other :-)...at Sunset at 7:00pm...Gary-Lee McKinney asked me out :-) ...My Sister, My Mum,(who I texted), Rosie, Jon, Serena, Lydia, Nigel, & Cassey were the first to know as we were with them...And it was one of the best days of my life!! One to never forget :-
Saturday, 8 August 2009
My identity is in Jesus Christ, he is my Lord and saviour; and I absolutly captivated at newday by his everlasting and steadfast love.
I have learnt so much about my identity this week; and who I am and who I am not! Jesus Christ Made me to be his daughter and I am fearfully & wonderfully made by him. So therefore I am beautiful because he made me in HIS image.
This newday he has revealed some of his plans for me...I'm going to Sydney, Africa & America at one point...but lets seeing wat he has in hold for my future husband...I never told you about 4 weeks I completely got over the guy I liked...I've started to get over him ever since he went out with his girlfriend but this is it- to the point I don't know why I liked himl; he seriously isn't the right guy for me, and we have pratically nothing in common!! BUT I like someone new; and we both seem to be going the same path....traveling and children (as in working with them.) and in livy Gibbs seminar I felt I was going to be a mother at some point!! Which is really exciting news!
See a lot happened at this newday!!...
My friend Jenny Burdett had two vision for me; which have changed me and helped, it involved my backbone, fear of man & God, Vine's and being sent to both here and abroad, now and then. Sam Mason has a prophecy for me about college next year, and Rachael campbell as a prophecy about me going to America!! AHHHH how exciting!! I was liturally drenched in his holy spirit to the point I was acting drunk and I couldn't speak!! AND IT WAS AMAZING, I was so 'chilled out' and at peace :) Which is such a wonderful place to be in.
I forgave a lot of people who have hurt me in my life, and from that evening I told a massive step forward. Rosie Jenkins prayed for me that Our enemy won't attact me as he has a tendancy to do so when I've just been filled with the Holy Spirit...and I told a leap of faith and told Jenny everything that was going on in my life, and bad stuff I've done; and she has also prayed for me :) ; where I made a decision to not listen to lies of our enemy because The giver of life is far greater!!
like Steph Liston said one of the evenings...Unfold yourself before God; which I actually love that phrase and think we should all 'unfold ourselves before God' and tell him everything that is going on! Because he loves to listen to us.
I also meet a guy; and he is wonderful, lovely, amazing, verry attractive, Godly, and hes been called by God to go traveling and to work with children!! Seriously I really like him :). I've only known him since the 13th July! But I do really miss him now, I liturally missed him on the last day I practically walked pasted him and didn't see him (though he was putting down the big top.) but yeah Corrr!! hahaha
There is so much more I have learnt this newday, stuff that I could not be put into words. But I do not think I am the person I was before newday....In a great way!!
many blessings
Signing out Suzie xxx
I have learnt so much about my identity this week; and who I am and who I am not! Jesus Christ Made me to be his daughter and I am fearfully & wonderfully made by him. So therefore I am beautiful because he made me in HIS image.
This newday he has revealed some of his plans for me...I'm going to Sydney, Africa & America at one point...but lets seeing wat he has in hold for my future husband...I never told you about 4 weeks I completely got over the guy I liked...I've started to get over him ever since he went out with his girlfriend but this is it- to the point I don't know why I liked himl; he seriously isn't the right guy for me, and we have pratically nothing in common!! BUT I like someone new; and we both seem to be going the same path....traveling and children (as in working with them.) and in livy Gibbs seminar I felt I was going to be a mother at some point!! Which is really exciting news!
See a lot happened at this newday!!...
My friend Jenny Burdett had two vision for me; which have changed me and helped, it involved my backbone, fear of man & God, Vine's and being sent to both here and abroad, now and then. Sam Mason has a prophecy for me about college next year, and Rachael campbell as a prophecy about me going to America!! AHHHH how exciting!! I was liturally drenched in his holy spirit to the point I was acting drunk and I couldn't speak!! AND IT WAS AMAZING, I was so 'chilled out' and at peace :) Which is such a wonderful place to be in.
I forgave a lot of people who have hurt me in my life, and from that evening I told a massive step forward. Rosie Jenkins prayed for me that Our enemy won't attact me as he has a tendancy to do so when I've just been filled with the Holy Spirit...and I told a leap of faith and told Jenny everything that was going on in my life, and bad stuff I've done; and she has also prayed for me :) ; where I made a decision to not listen to lies of our enemy because The giver of life is far greater!!
like Steph Liston said one of the evenings...Unfold yourself before God; which I actually love that phrase and think we should all 'unfold ourselves before God' and tell him everything that is going on! Because he loves to listen to us.
I also meet a guy; and he is wonderful, lovely, amazing, verry attractive, Godly, and hes been called by God to go traveling and to work with children!! Seriously I really like him :). I've only known him since the 13th July! But I do really miss him now, I liturally missed him on the last day I practically walked pasted him and didn't see him (though he was putting down the big top.) but yeah Corrr!! hahaha
There is so much more I have learnt this newday, stuff that I could not be put into words. But I do not think I am the person I was before newday....In a great way!!
many blessings
Signing out Suzie xxx
Newday 2009
I HAVE BEEN TRANSFORMED; I HAVE BEEN CHANGED. I AM ALIVE IN JESUS CHRIST!!
Seriously this has been the best newday ever! I can not wait for this next year and I can not wait for Newday!!!
Seriously this has been the best newday ever! I can not wait for this next year and I can not wait for Newday!!!
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