Do you know what it feel like to be invisible? Or to be forgotten?

Well heres the girl who should be named the invisible & forgotten girl.

My name is Suzie Marlow and most of the time; you won't see me. I am invisible to the world most of them. I can stand in a crowd and no one will acknowledge me. no-one really gives any stuff about me.

Actually the worst part is. The worst is at church. I might as well not go to be honest; no one really gives any stuff about me there. Most of the time I am doing TKC kidz or PA; and there is where I belong.

Today I liturally at one point stood there all alone and no one cared. I feel like I have practically no friends there- all of them have left, or one of them hardly seems to come and more, and the other is a hard working impactor who is always rushing around.
I stood with a group and I got one person saying 'Hi' and that was it.
If I left today and didn't come back; no one would propally notice, let alone care.
But for the next two Sunday's I've got Kidz work which is fun, and then two weeks of PA. So that'll keep me going for the next month.

People litually will forget me. I have been forgotten about three times for a lift somewhere, twise by the same person and another person. I think there have been more times. And this holiday people have forgotten that we were even meeting up. I am just so forgetable.

I am fed up of being so invisible and being so forgotten all the time. I don't know why I bother going to The Kings Church mid Sussex. I'd rather find a church where I am valued and actually have more than a few friends (like 2 as everyone else has left.)

signing out
the invisible girl x

A beautiful song

You're staring in the mirror and your looking back at me
Somehow you've replaced yourself and don't like what you see
You've been a slave far too long to what other people think
So you bend and you break and you lose along the way
What once was beautiful I want to

Stand out
I wanna stand tall
I wanna be myself even if it means
I won't fit in at all
I wanna be real
I wanna be me
Cause everything I am is who I'm meant to be
I was meant to be free

Why are we so quick to hide originality
We try and try to fit inside a false reality
We're all the same when it comes to putting on the face
and its such a shame
Oh its such a waste
Cause what makes us beautiful
Is what makes us

CHORUS

We are we are beautiful
We are we are beautiful

By Jessie Daniels

We are beautiful.

He flippin likes someone else.
He FRICKING LIKE SOMEONE ELSE.

I HATE MEN!
well not all men.

IT FRICKING HURTS.


*cry* I hate feelings, and I'm destind to be alone. =|

how stupid is that all I do is like him; and I'm crying to the fact that he likes someone else. HOW UTERLY PATHETIC OF ME

I hate this. I hate that the girl she likes, always gets the guy she likes.

I just want t forget everything. All men in my life (apart from God and Dad) Have seemed to have hurt me one way or another....I am so upset right now =(

You know what I hate most, is that everyone knows. Everyone even he knows I like him. I was too open with telling people how I feel =| I used to be good about hiding how I felt about things.

I'm just fed up of the guy I like always never liking me, and always liking someone better. My first ever boyfriend found someone 'better' and practically cheated on me. Second boyfriend was too embarssed to be seen with me, and you don't wanna know what he got up to the summer after we split up...which was about 2 weeks after we split. Making me slightly dirty; but then I look at him now and see a brother.
I do wish we had never gone out. It was too much of a big mistake.

right that it on the ranting! Night!

The greatest Day in History

this has actually been a great day!

I got up at 5:15am because I have to be at church for 6:30 to set up. Embarrasingly I was wearing the guy I like hoody because I was 'borrowing' it; and he turned up to help too! LOL
So I got to see him from 6:30 :D
Then I got to do lighting, which is something different to do :) and got to spend time with a few lovely people while they were teaching me :). I also got to spend time alone in the lighitng box, and dance when there was worship and I got so much joy out of it. Ironically the whole choir saw me dancing up there and kindly told me they had seen me!
The amazing preach about how Jesus SAVED US FROM OUR SINS! We are fully blamefully; but he took our sin, and took responsibility like a real man does.
Then My friend bought me a packed of chocolate covered rich tea biscuits; which I only got to eat half because people bombaded me for some. I also got to give mostly everyone a little easter egg each :) spreading love to all! :D
The packing down was fun, and my friend helped me with my Spanish as I am failing miserably!!
I got a lift home from a very nice friend :) Who scratched his car wheels - clever much! He is actually a really nice guy, and a great friend =|.
When I got home, I got Easter eggs. yum, yum. I listened to Mark Driciol preach again about "marriage and Men." It really speaks to women about how they should be treated with respect. How women shouldn't be violated and are God's DAUGHTERS. The way Mark talks about his daughters, is like how God talks about us. He delights in us, and LOVES US! We deserves so much more from men. It made me realise that the two guys I have had a relationship were so wrong for me, and thats not what God wanted.
http://www.marshillchurch.org/media/trial/marriage-and-men
Marriage is for Men, not for boys. Marriage is not for cauvinists and cowards. I am so in love with out living saviour and almightly Lord. There are no words to describe how AWESOME HE IS!
And then, then dinner. I am no going down to Brighton to got o CCK (church of Christ the King) and have more Being filled with the spirit of God!! :)

Bless this Day Father. I am in love :)
I am lovin' this day!! :) xxxxxxxxxxxx